So its been awhile again since I have been here, of course with 4 kids, and being pregnant with #5 makes finding that time to sit and type a bit harder to come by..... Nothing really big to update about. All the kids are doing well in school, Bryan is talking counting and singing his ABC's now totally amazes me, he can now spell his first name and when asked tell you his full name, quite a big deal for a boy that just 3months ago when asked his name would say NAME! and that was it, All the kids know we are expecting a new brother or sister in Late March and we have 1 for a sister 3 for a brother lol can you guess which of my girls wants the brother so she doesnt have to share her room some more???? Bryan if you ask him he will tell you every time that there is a Baby Brother in mommy's tummy....he may be on to something but we wont know for sure in till baby gets here.
I did talk to my High risk OB about having a VBA2C and much to my shock he said that he didnt see why I couldnt but wanted to run it by another doctor in the practice so as long as both agree and baby is small enough we are talking under 7lbs 14oz I can go ahead and try for a natural birth,I feel like I can quite dreading my Due Date now, cause while giving birth is a wonderful event I hate the anticpation of what is to come knowing it will be c-section. Time is going by Far to quickly for me with the pregnancy though so many more things I still have left to do and so little time to get it done in.....really need to get my self in gear and finish. so thats about it for now ill have to get the new pictures of the baby up from my last Doc vist, and some of the kids.
This is my Life, a life of a mother to 6 Children, 5 Living and one waiting beyond the Vail,these are my Joys,my Sorrow's, and my Grief
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
A Bill of RIghts
I Got this off another friends blog but found it very fitting thanks=)
A Bill of Rights For Parents of Kids With Special Needs
We, the parents, in order to form a more perfect union, establish justice, insure tranquility (and sanity) and promote the general welfare of our families, do ordain and establish this Bill of Rights.
* We have the right to expect our kids to be seen for who they are as individuals, not as labels or diagnoses.
* We have a right to trust our instincts about our kids and realize that experts don't always know best.
* We have a right to ignore the remarks, questions and stares and not give explanations or excuses for why our children are the way they are.
* We have a right to choose alternative therapies for our kids.
* We have a right to roll our eyes straight out of our heads when we encounter certain mothers who brag nonstop that their kids are the smartest students/best athletes ever.
* We have a right to wonder “What if…” every so often.
* We have a right to play aimlessly with our children. Not for therapeutic or educational purposes—just for fun.
* We have a right to blast Bruce Springsteen/Tom Petty/Any Rocker, down a glass of Pinot Grigio, get a pedicure, go out with the girls or do all of the aforementioned at once if that's what it takes to avoid burnout.
* We have a right to react to people’s ignorance in whatever way we feel necessary.
* We have a right to not always have our child be the poster child for his/her disability and some days be just a child.
* We have a right to go through the grieving process and realize we may never quite be "over it."
* We have the right to give our kids chores. Even better if they can learn to make breakfast in bed for us.
* We have a right to stretch the truth when we fail to do the exercises the therapist asked us to do this week because we were too darn tired or overwhelmed.
* We have a right to have yet more Pinot Grigio
* We have a right to fire any doctor or therapist who's negative, unsupportive or who generally says suck-y things.
* We have a right to tell family and friends that everything may not be OK—at least not how they mean it, anyway.
* We have a right to hope for an empty playground so we don’t have to look into another child’s eyes and answer the question, “What’s wrong with him?”
* We have a right to bawl on the way back from the playground, the birthday party, the mall or anyplace where our children’s challenges become glaringly obvious in the face of all the other kids doing their typical-development things.
* We have the right to give our children consequences for their behavior. They may be “special” but they can still be a royal pain in the ass.
* We have a right to take a break from Googling therapies, procedures, medicine and treatments for our kids to research upcoming concerts, exotic teas or anything not related to our child’s disabilities.
* We have a right to talk about how great our kids are when people don’t get it.
* We have the right to not always behave as inspirational icons who never complain or gripe about the sometimes awful realities of raising a child with special needs.
* We have a right to expect quality services for our children not just when they’re infants, preschoolers and elementary school age, but when they’re in older grades and adults, too.
* We have a right to adequate funding for those services and to not have to kick, scream or endure a wait for them.
* We have a right to get tired of people saying, as they give that sympathy stare, "I don't know how you do it."
* We have a right to wish that sometimes things could be easier.
* We have a right to cheer like crazy anytime our children amaze us—or weep like lunatics.
* We have a right to push, push and push some more to make sure our children are treated fairly by the world
A Bill of Rights For Parents of Kids With Special Needs
We, the parents, in order to form a more perfect union, establish justice, insure tranquility (and sanity) and promote the general welfare of our families, do ordain and establish this Bill of Rights.
* We have the right to expect our kids to be seen for who they are as individuals, not as labels or diagnoses.
* We have a right to trust our instincts about our kids and realize that experts don't always know best.
* We have a right to ignore the remarks, questions and stares and not give explanations or excuses for why our children are the way they are.
* We have a right to choose alternative therapies for our kids.
* We have a right to roll our eyes straight out of our heads when we encounter certain mothers who brag nonstop that their kids are the smartest students/best athletes ever.
* We have a right to wonder “What if…” every so often.
* We have a right to play aimlessly with our children. Not for therapeutic or educational purposes—just for fun.
* We have a right to blast Bruce Springsteen/Tom Petty/Any Rocker, down a glass of Pinot Grigio, get a pedicure, go out with the girls or do all of the aforementioned at once if that's what it takes to avoid burnout.
* We have a right to react to people’s ignorance in whatever way we feel necessary.
* We have a right to not always have our child be the poster child for his/her disability and some days be just a child.
* We have a right to go through the grieving process and realize we may never quite be "over it."
* We have the right to give our kids chores. Even better if they can learn to make breakfast in bed for us.
* We have a right to stretch the truth when we fail to do the exercises the therapist asked us to do this week because we were too darn tired or overwhelmed.
* We have a right to have yet more Pinot Grigio
* We have a right to fire any doctor or therapist who's negative, unsupportive or who generally says suck-y things.
* We have a right to tell family and friends that everything may not be OK—at least not how they mean it, anyway.
* We have a right to hope for an empty playground so we don’t have to look into another child’s eyes and answer the question, “What’s wrong with him?”
* We have a right to bawl on the way back from the playground, the birthday party, the mall or anyplace where our children’s challenges become glaringly obvious in the face of all the other kids doing their typical-development things.
* We have the right to give our children consequences for their behavior. They may be “special” but they can still be a royal pain in the ass.
* We have a right to take a break from Googling therapies, procedures, medicine and treatments for our kids to research upcoming concerts, exotic teas or anything not related to our child’s disabilities.
* We have a right to talk about how great our kids are when people don’t get it.
* We have the right to not always behave as inspirational icons who never complain or gripe about the sometimes awful realities of raising a child with special needs.
* We have a right to expect quality services for our children not just when they’re infants, preschoolers and elementary school age, but when they’re in older grades and adults, too.
* We have a right to adequate funding for those services and to not have to kick, scream or endure a wait for them.
* We have a right to get tired of people saying, as they give that sympathy stare, "I don't know how you do it."
* We have a right to wish that sometimes things could be easier.
* We have a right to cheer like crazy anytime our children amaze us—or weep like lunatics.
* We have a right to push, push and push some more to make sure our children are treated fairly by the world
Saturday, May 30, 2009
change
Life as I know has changed........and yet im still not quite sure how I feel....Relife? Emptyness?
its going to take time to set in I think but soon ill blog all about it.
its going to take time to set in I think but soon ill blog all about it.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
My Son ,My Mircale
Its been a little bit since I last posted hasnt it?
well to start I am not in the 2WW for those of you that dont know what that means it is refering to the Two week wait for Aunt flow to show....... I went to the RE last week on Friday and was given my Trigger shot and 3 days before I was told I had 2 good follies one on each side I am just praying this time at least 1 takes, all I am asking is Just 1.
Other things happening around here I had Bryan's IEP meeting and He will get moved next year into a kindergarten setting with more teachers less kids and will still get his Speech therapy, OT therapy and Physical therapy, I was glad to hear he will be taken into the Regular Kindergarten rooms ( ok I found that kind of obnoxious Regular/Normal) and get to do art center, Music time and some of the seat work he will however always have A teacher with him to keep him in his seat make sure he dose not hurt another child or become disruptive,if he does they will remove him from the class and take him back to the other room.....he will also get to go on the Field trips to the pumpkin patch and his Kindergarten Graduation, I am so happy that he is progressing he is speaking and blossoming and it is truly a mircale to witness this my boy who went from saying nothing more then No and dada to speaking to me telling me he loves me. Of course there is the Mom part of me that still thinks it is so unfair that he has to struggle to learn these things, and I wonder if he will ever get to be in a regular class setting without someone hovering over him will he ever get to be like the other kids running around playing and socializeing? or will the Autism hold him back and keep him from being able to interact with other kids? I pray each night that he will prove everyone wrong and just be him happy whole and complete but I guess you could say he already is Whole and Complete he is exactly who god intended him to be and perhaps I should accept that and thank him for this precious boy who I get to see achevie big things daily and I witness mircales through each day.
well to start I am not in the 2WW for those of you that dont know what that means it is refering to the Two week wait for Aunt flow to show....... I went to the RE last week on Friday and was given my Trigger shot and 3 days before I was told I had 2 good follies one on each side I am just praying this time at least 1 takes, all I am asking is Just 1.
Other things happening around here I had Bryan's IEP meeting and He will get moved next year into a kindergarten setting with more teachers less kids and will still get his Speech therapy, OT therapy and Physical therapy, I was glad to hear he will be taken into the Regular Kindergarten rooms ( ok I found that kind of obnoxious Regular/Normal) and get to do art center, Music time and some of the seat work he will however always have A teacher with him to keep him in his seat make sure he dose not hurt another child or become disruptive,if he does they will remove him from the class and take him back to the other room.....he will also get to go on the Field trips to the pumpkin patch and his Kindergarten Graduation, I am so happy that he is progressing he is speaking and blossoming and it is truly a mircale to witness this my boy who went from saying nothing more then No and dada to speaking to me telling me he loves me. Of course there is the Mom part of me that still thinks it is so unfair that he has to struggle to learn these things, and I wonder if he will ever get to be in a regular class setting without someone hovering over him will he ever get to be like the other kids running around playing and socializeing? or will the Autism hold him back and keep him from being able to interact with other kids? I pray each night that he will prove everyone wrong and just be him happy whole and complete but I guess you could say he already is Whole and Complete he is exactly who god intended him to be and perhaps I should accept that and thank him for this precious boy who I get to see achevie big things daily and I witness mircales through each day.
Friday, March 13, 2009
No Longer Unexplained Infertility
So finally after Months of waiting and then more waiting for a cyst to go away I am on a Medicated
cycle yes thats right please dont faint! I know I wanted too! this cycle I took Femara and later this week I will take an Injection of Bravelle and then wait for my ultrasound and pray we have a couple good eggs,and that we manage to catch one and be blessed with baby #5!
Of course when I went into my RE for my baseline u/s I mentioned (on suggestion of my Friend)
that I thought maybe I could have Pcos and Imagine my surprise when I was told that not only did I have Pcos but that they diagnosied that a year ago, but for whatever reason someone failed to tell me this, I was a bit irratated but glad to know too! that these Long Annov cycles, the painfull periods and the persistant cysts are not because I am crazy but because I have an actual diagnosiable problem! so For now we wait and see how this cycle will pan out and pray that this is the last one I ever have to do.
cycle yes thats right please dont faint! I know I wanted too! this cycle I took Femara and later this week I will take an Injection of Bravelle and then wait for my ultrasound and pray we have a couple good eggs,and that we manage to catch one and be blessed with baby #5!
Of course when I went into my RE for my baseline u/s I mentioned (on suggestion of my Friend)
that I thought maybe I could have Pcos and Imagine my surprise when I was told that not only did I have Pcos but that they diagnosied that a year ago, but for whatever reason someone failed to tell me this, I was a bit irratated but glad to know too! that these Long Annov cycles, the painfull periods and the persistant cysts are not because I am crazy but because I have an actual diagnosiable problem! so For now we wait and see how this cycle will pan out and pray that this is the last one I ever have to do.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Jamine's MRI and a Rant
Well its been a bit since I have written here time just gets away from me.Jazmine had Her MRI finally and I am waiting for the Results of that and to find out where they will send her I have been told now that it will either be UCSF or UC Davis.... I really want this to be taken care of and done. Of course if we are sent to SF we were going to stay with a friend of mine there but I wont be doing that now I found out that Friend Betrayed my trust, my girls Bio dad has nothing to do with them he gave them up when they were 4 and 1 yr well I found out that this friend of mine was telling them information about Jazmine (Bio dad's family) her neck ect and these things were not to be told to them its none of there buissness I know you are probably thinking how could I be so cold not to include them, so I guess I will give a little backround on him and his family, they are the type of people who use someone play on there sympathy to get what they can and when they get found out the drop that person and move to the next sucker.....in 8 yrs they have not bothered to be involved with the girls except when they got a wild hair and decided that now was a good time to butt in, of course I put my foot down and said no more especially when they began defending the actions of the Bio dad, just so many things wrong with them and I dont want them any where near the girls, after all where was he when they had a belly ache or skinned there knee or the first day of school.......sure as heck not here helping them being a dad nope he tucked his tail and Ran! So I am Angry no make the IRATE that this so called Friend of mine had the nerve to go behind my back and give them information they have no right to!
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