Finally getting somewhere one step forward 2 steps back

Well we finally got the Referal for bryan to see a pediatric Neurologist and we can finally get his Dignosis on paper. I guess the biggest thing on my mind right now is we once again had just a Tease I found out we were preganat again and not more then 3 wks later I again suffered a loss. We are now in the midst of getting tests done to see if there is some reason I keep loseing babies. I feel like such a Failure I wanted this baby as much as I wanted the one before it and yet my prayers went unanswered. I am just praying that the testing shows me something we can fix