Splenda's Bad!

So today I made a sad and disturbing find, I used to use Splenda a sweeter to make koolaid as I am Diabetic so Shouldnt have any sugar, i had stopped using it around Feb when I found then that it wasnt a good thing to be useing I now wish I had stopped useing it much sooner I read today that useing splenda can cause a loss of pregnancy! How can the makers of this stuff put it on the market and let people consume it knowing what it could do? Now Im left with my thoughts of was it the splenda I used on more then one occasion that caused the lose of my baby? Had I not used it would I be in 2wks getting ready to welcome a new child into my Family, Sadly that isnt something I will ever know for sure. I just find it so madding that they will put a label on a hair dryer that reads "DO NOT SUBMERGE IN WATER MAY CAUSE ELECTRIC SHOCK" but they will leave out something like this on something I thought was a safe alternitive!

Flashing Light Ohhh the wonders!!!

So I seem to have found a way to get bryan to walk flat footed!! amazing what one pair of shoes that have flashing lights will do!! we got him the shoes a few days back and he is facenatied by the lights and the lights wont flash unless he walks flat. The girls are leaving for the weekend to grandma's so that seperates the two that fight all the time and leaves me with half the kids and half the work.
Some other thoughts that i have been mulling over I have been having dreadfull dreams of getting preganat again and then losing that baby as well I am worried that in getting preg again that I will have the same outcome or have another doctor that wants to rush things and we end up losing another precious baby. so far this month is looking well the pattern seems to be mimicking my past charts all I can do at this point is wait and Pray that this is my month that this month will finally bring that final person to our family.

Another post.....kind of a gripe

Well lets touch on the last couple days around here.
My husband and I are into this whole trying for a baby thing and we will see if this month shows anything at all. Yesterday the kids had me a wits end all day it was whining and argueing about nothing inparticular just whining because they can i think. Something more important thou Bryan got accepted into the early childhood development class so we are hopefull that this will help him learn to speak better among other things, the teacher did observe that he walks on his toes and when he runs he dosent bend his knees wich results in him falling down alot. they feel he will benifit from Physical therapy as well as Speech so next step is to get them all the paper work from his therapist in Reno and see what we do from there. I was relived to be told that he dose not have to be potty trained as origanly I was told he had to be 90% trained or they wouldnt accept him so who ever told me that was mistaken. school starts in 2wks i cant belive how fast the summer has just flown by. next thing we know it will be christmas time again........

A good Appointment ..... Sorta?

So today I had my yearly check with the Gyno and I brought up my lose in January I was told at the time that I had an eptopic but after disscussing the facts with her she dosent think it was Eptopic at all that my previous doc was wrong, that the baby/ies were in the right place but that the preganacy failed, it dose however leave me with lingering thoughts and questions. Like what if we had waited another week or 2 would things have been ok? should i have not taken his word for it and waited? my numbers for those of you who know what they mean started at a hcg of 18 then 4 days later and Hcg of 200 and the day of my loss I was told that in 2wks I had only moved to 279 sooo I suppose that means the pg was failing. I feel it wieghing more heavaly on my mind since my due date was September 22nd and that date is aprouching fast. I feel good though knowing I am healthy and can have another baby if I so disire . for the time being thou we are concentrating all our time on the other kids.

A begining Peek Into my Life

So this is my First attempt at blogging I figured it was time for me to have a place to write down all
the funny things, or things I find funny down and the day to day going's on in my home. to start I have 4 kids, Jazmine 9, Danielle 6, Matthew 5 and Bryan 3. Add to that two Doxie's who think they are people and a husband who is teriffic but is at times like another child.
Yesterday was Jazmine's Birthday she had a ball and recived more presents then I know where to put,of course while Bryan (my husband) was out BBQ for everyone we came to the subject of the cat we werent exactly sure where he had gone yet again and as if to answer my question he popped his Head and front paws from under the house quite and amusing sight.
All the kids are excited for school to start but I dont think any of them are as anxious as I am, I love having them home for the summer and enjoy every moment I spend with them but I appreciate having the time to just me to clean or do whatever else needs to be done. This year has over all has been alright it started off hard for me and my husband , but has sense improved we decided to add another additon to our family but have yet to succed my son Matthew is convinced that we will have 2 sister babies by christmas time and nothing I can say or do will change his mind, he is totally set on a sister and I have been informed by him that no Brother babies can be brought home! I love the way there little minds work. Little bryan now he is a kick we have been working with him on talking as he has a speech Delay and yesterday my Husband was trying to get him to say Daddy well that didnt go over quite as Daddy expected after a few minutes Bryan pointed to daddy and Proclaimed him Poopy!! well it was a word right? not the one looked for but a word. So ok this is the first post I hope you enjoyed the first peek into my life